Black and white thinking has
been a burden in my life. Like a light switch that is either on or off, I judge
most things through the lens of either ‘all’ or ‘nothing’. The Buddha spoke of
the middle path – something quite different.
“People with autism and
Asperger’s Syndrome tend towards black and white thinking. They see
themselves and the world around them in polar opposites…” - Temple
Grandin
“Siddhartha (the Buddha) dedicated himself to finding a
way to end human suffering. He abandoned his former way of life, and dedicated
himself to a life of extreme asceticism. So harsh was this way of life that he
grew thin enough that he could feel his hands if he placed one on the small of
his back and the other on his stomach. In this state of wretched concentration,
in heroic but futile self-denial, he overheard a teacher speaking of music. If
the strings on the instrument are set too tight, then the instrument will not
play harmoniously. If the strings are set too loose, the instrument will not
produce music. Only the middle way, not too tight and not too loose, will
produce harmonious music. This chance conversation changed his life overnight.
The goal was not to live a completely worldly life, nor was it to live a life
in complete denial of the physical body, but to live in a Middle Way. The way
out of suffering was through concentration, and since the mind was connected to
the body, denying the body would hamper concentration, just as overindulgence would
distract one from concentration. “
- The Historical Siddhartha
What does this
mean in regards to relationships with other people? When I experience a Movie
or TV show or band, and I like it, I want to know everything about it. If I’m
not into it, I want nothing to do with it. I notice that most people have more
of a casual relationship with things that they like. When they are exposed to
them, they enjoy it for the moment, and then casually move on to the next
thing. This is fine when we are talking about entertainment or objects and the
like, but what does this mean when we are talking about people?
I notice, that
when I like someone, I want to know everything about them, and that what they
say, think or feel really matters to me. If it is somebody who I don’t feel
that way about, I really don’t care what they think, do or say. Their impact on
me is pretty minimal, but if I am into you, you can impact me like a giant
ocean wave.
Again, I notice
most people have a more casual relationship with each other, where attention
from strangers and acquaintances can make a difference and any one person
cannot be so dominating.
So how do we
deal with this? The fact is we need to have relationships with people, and most
people do not have the black and white perspective that we do. This leads us to
misinterpret other people’s intentions when we judge them from a black and
white standard. It also makes us feel unfulfilled from personal relationships
when they do not meet out standards.
For the most
part – they will never meet our standard. Most people just don’t think like we do.
The Buddha’s
message of the ‘middle way’ applies to all aspects of our life, especially when
it comes to personal relationships. No one will meet our extreme desire for
complete attention and we misinterpret that lack of as total rejection. The
truth is somewhere in the middle ground that is so hard for us to live in.
So how do we
live in that middle path? The Dharma teaches us that our worth as a person
isn't dependent on what others think of us. If we start thinking that way, it
is our practice – mindful awareness, that we need to turn to in order to go
back to the present moment and focus on the here an now and not some incorrect
evaluation of what we think what others feel about us.
The Buddha spoke
how our thoughts are like a pebble landing in a pond. Each pebble that hits the
pond creates waves in the water like how thoughts create waves within out
psyche. By our meditation practice, we are able to observe our thoughts from an
unattached perspective. This moment of observation is the first moment of
enlightenment. When we are able to observe our thoughts, and not immediately
react and identify with them, we are turning that pond into an ocean. Like how
pebbles dropped into a great ocean will only have a small impact, our thoughts
when observed will not overwhelm us like pebbles in a pond. This gives us the
ability to recognize our unskillful the black and white thinking, and put
things in the proper perspective which is some where in the middle – the middle
path.